It’s highly unusual to write a labor and delivery story almost a year after the whole thing happened. But at the time this blog was not active and maybe this way will give a more unique perspective. A little less emotional and more rational way. 🙂 Caution – will probably get a bit TMI. 🙂 Continue Reading
Oh, it’s been a while! This will be one hell of an update. 🙂 A lot has been happening which is one of the reasons why I’ve been away. But I also needed some offline time and I feel like it was a good choice. Continue Reading
Weigh in: 87,4 kg
Aaaaaaaa, I have been going up and down about 0,5 kg every few weeks, it’s frustrating. As I said last week I was taking it a little slower this week. I did work out a couple of times, all together every other day. I watched what I ate, but I didn’t track calories (I just tracked the food in my journal). And I really watched to drink enough. Even with being careful I had days when I didn’t meet my water goal.
Weigh in: 86,9 kg
Seriously, it’s just hitting me that May is half way done. My maternity leave ends in a bit more than a month. 😦 Sorry, just a random depressing thought. 🙂 Back to recap.
Last week started out really strong. I prepped my lunches on Sunday, I started out really strong with my workouts. All in all, I did great.
But then I started feeling really bad. Now thinking back it was a combination of physical symptoms and mental stuff. I’ve been having some issues with depression and anxiety before. I’ve talked about it with the doctor a bit, but she said it’s nothing serious at this point but to tell if it gets worse. I can usually handle it pretty well. Specially working out has helped me a lot. But to top the bad mood I started having weird physical symptoms like hot flashes and dizziness. I still get them sometimes. I think that I might have pushed myself a bit too much both physically and mentally. I definitely have been drinking too little, so I’m working really hard on it this week. I’ve been eating too little and I’ve been worrying too much. In any way, whatever it is I’m doing isn’t really working. And I keep pushing myself to get fit and loose weight. And I worry about finding a job and moving out of this apartment as soon as possible. Anyway…
I don’t think it’s smart for me to continue what I’m doing, because at this point I feel like I’m going in circles. I have a few good weeks, I lose some weight, then I gain it all back again from somewhere. I think I need to figure out stuff mentally before I can do anything physically. That doesn’t mean I’m quitting. I’ll just be focusing on other things that I’ve kind of been neglecting a bit.
My goals for this week:
- Water! Drink at least 2 liters of water every day. I won’t go to bed before I finish this goal every day.
- Nutrition. I won’t track on FitBit anymore so that I won’t count the calories. I’ll still track in my journal and work on making healthy choices.
- Fitness. Focus on getting outside and walking with the whole family, work on meeting step goal daily. If possible do Pilates or TurboJam.
- Personal. Writing. Whenever I feel down it’s much easier for me to vent it by writing. It’s like as soon as my mood goes down, my creativity and ideas go up. So I’ve actually already started some creative writing. Some of it is just random, I might post it here some time. But I also found this interesting course on Snowflake Method for creative writing and I’m trying it out.
For the last week and a half I have been traveling up and down Europe. And needles to say I did zero workouts and I ate when and what I got the chance to eat. At this point I’m at the same weight as I was 2 weeks ago and I’m honestly surprised that I haven’t gained anything.
Weigh in: 86,6 kg 😀
I know, I know, it’s barely a loss. But after the weekend I had I’m glad it’s not a gain. I started this week pretty strong. I spent a lot of time working on this blog. It still needs a lot of work, but I have a lot of ideas and half finished drafts that I might even get to this week.